Why does he keep doing this to me? It’s driving me crazy. I’m not this girl. I’ve never been but I just can’t help myself around him. I know that all girls say this and then he ends up being ‘the one’ in that dramatic, cliche movie we’ve all seen at one point of our lives… but this is different. This is real life. He’s not prince charming. He could very easily not be the one. So why does it feel like he might be? How can someone I’ve only met once have this kind of impact. I guess that’s the effect of social networks for you. That’s the only contact I’ve had with him for the past 2 years and yet, it feels so much more real than anything I’ve ever had with anyone else, in my physical state. But God, I hate that I’m not sure how he feels. I know he loves me. He told me so.. what I don’t know is how much.. and if it’s enough. He tells me these things and I melt and then the next time we talk .. it’s like nothing ever happened. Same old, same old. I guess it’s normal. We can’t be talking to each other romantically all the time …but.. why the hell not!? Why can’t he just want me as much as I want him.. right now, this exact second. He’s older and mature and patient and good. And I’m the opposite of all of that. I know that he’s waiting. Waiting to see what he can make of his life before coming to me. I should do the same.. but I want him. Now. Why doesn’t he want me like I want him? How can he be okay with not seeing me for 2 years and I’m over here hating life. I guess I need someone more than I’m willing to admit. But I don’t need just someone. I need him. I want him. Now.